I shared a prayer request with my small group which made perfect sense to them: I'm having my February crisis, and it's only October!!! This group has faithfully prayed for me as every February I wrestle with what the Lord would have me do the following year, where I should go, what direction my life should take. But I'm wrestling with this again, and it's only October.
The restlessness partly stems from the fact that I'm seriously thinking about grad school, knowing that I need to start applying NOW and can't wait for February to start making decisions. It also stems from the month long missions emphasis at my church.
The restlessness doesn't really come from dissatisfaction in my job. My job is still hard, but I feel so called there this year, and am so into what I am doing. The thought of leaving and starting over again makes me shudder...and next year would just be that much more difficult. So I know that the restlessness is not springing from a desire to escape. I've made my peace with teaching at an urban school and for the moment know that is where I am supposed to be.
But where does God want me next year? This is a question I am considering now. I met with the missions pastor at church, and as a result of that meeting am seriously considering going abroad for 2 years to teach English and represent the Lord overseas, while possibly getting my master's. It caught me by surprise, this new life plan. I am praying through whether it is God's will for me, and would appreciate your prayers as well as I work through this.
