Life these last few weeks has involved a lot of waiting. Particularly waiting for the phone to ring. Waiting to see if I'll have a sub job the next day. Waiting for a prospective employer to call me back. Waiting to hear about a friend's health. Waiting in the horrendous traffic that seems to be everywhere right now due to construction.
I really hate waiting. Especially when it's about the big, important stuff.
I think I hate waiting because I am so out of control. There comes a point where there's nothing more you can do, aside from having the phone set on loudest and keeping it clutched in your hand.
So to avoid waiting, I distract myself. This is more difficult right now when I'm not working full time, don't have a lot of big projects to do, and lots of quiet time. So I watch movies, go to the store, spend time with friends, which helps some, but I think it misses the point.
But waiting is very important to God. One of the most often-repeated commands in the Bible is to wait on the Lord. Which I really don't do, I don't think. Not compared with how I wait to hear about the job, or about a friend's health. I don't wait intensely on God.
I think waiting is different than seeking. Seeking I can do. Getting busy in activities, actively doing things, I can manage. Waiting is different. It is still, quiet, actively passive.
How do I wait better? I am not sure, but I know it is a command I need to follow.
